Life After Divorce | The New Me Mom

The last song after the church sermon today had my emotions all over the place. I see an older man with his wife, 4 rows in front of me, holding her hand and wiping his tear filled face. That was it for me. Not only the words from the song, but just seeing in front of me what I’ve wanted all along. I’ve always wanted a marriage where my husband would be vulnerable enough to cry in front of others and not feel shame, to hold my hand and be my equal, or just want to go to church with me at all. But that wasn’t the full reason for my own tears today. With my arms lifted high and tears streaming down my face, I know I have so much to be thankful for. Maybe not a God fearing husband but I have children I have been given and are a true miracle. I have friends near and far that have been a true blessing. Even some friends brought back into my life with unknown reasons but maybe they are to serve a bigger purpose than I could even understand right now. I have a church family I didn’t know I needed but with God’s help, he facilitated friendships and community I only would have seen because of my divorce. My parents and siblings have been truly remarkable this past year with nothing but support and being judgement free and just wanting the best for my kids and myself. But if I could have looked into the future and seen what my life would have looked like from last Thanksgiving to this years, I wouldn’t have believed it. I served my first night opening doors to our church Christmas program last year. It was like God planting a seed and seeing how it would grow. That same night I went to the “wrapping station” through the church. (We go to a church where each year they set up a station at the mall and wrap gifts for free from the Thanksgiving holiday to Chrismas Eve.) After this I got a job working in the church preschool, volunteered for the kids church camp in the summer and started volunteering on Sundays, when I didn’t have my kids.

My therapist said, “you should have hit rock bottom last year but instead you perservered.” I’m not at all looking for anyone’s approval but sometimes we do need a reminder of how far we have come. God is so great and continues to be. My tears told me so today. I’m thankful for this wild path I’m on. And only by his grace am I still here to tell my story. It might feel like a “never ending” one but it just shows the “never ending” possibilites God has for each of us.

If you feel lost or lonely this year, know you are not alone. God can turn all of our messes into miracles and I’m proof of that. And maybe you can’t hear him just yet but just because he is quiet doesn’t mean he isn’t able or isn’t working. God is so good and maybe just telling him “thank you” for what you do have is all he needs from you right now.

“If the only prayer you said was,”thank you,” that would be enough”. –Meister Eckhart

I hope you all have a very Happy Thanksgiving, whatever that might look like for you this year. ♥️

Everything you do or say should be done to obey, or as a representative of; in the name of the Lord Jesus. And in all you do, give thanks to God the Father through Jesus..

Colossians 3:17