Life After Divorce | The New Me Mom

Ecclesiastes 3:1

For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven.

There has been so much change in my life lately. This isn’t news to anyone of course. Newly single mom trying to navigate the unknown…

I never envisioned myself to be alone. Not at almost 40 years old. Its very different than wondering at age 20, “who am I going to become?” There were so many more possibilities back then. Envisioning how my marriage was going to look and how many kids I was going to have. What type of career I would choose…

Now I feel my window has become shorter and more narrow. I mean I have 2 kids, one with a special need that needs extra attention. I’m divorced. I have way more wrinkles than I used to. I’m sure some would call this “baggage”. I feel like we are a “package” though. My daughter is the most loving and sweetest little girl on the planet. My son, yes comes with a few challenges but with patience he is so easy to love. And with me, I bring optimism. I see how the future can be scary but so welcoming to it as well. Yes there are so many unknowns but I just trust in Jesus. Even in the middle of the storm of my divorce, I still had hope that God would work miracles in the end.

Proverbs 3:5

Trusting God makes sense even when it doesn’t.

In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

God surely works in mysterious ways. I’ve seen how things that could be coincidences could only truly be God things. Yet there are still some things I question because I haven’t seen it play out yet. Those “miracles” I was waiting for in the end of my divorce, yes I’m still waiting. And that’s ok because I know God will provide me with the upmost clarity. I won’t need to look for the answers cause I really see it being a stamp on my forehead when it happens. People ask “how can you be so positive with the hand you’ve been dealt?” I don’t know how to be anything else. I’m not a drinker or drug user. I don’t have bad habits that would make my life spin out of control. I’m not depressed. Sure I’ve cried to God, just out of disappointment, and yes I have a therapist to speak to, but that’s to keep me talking to someone else so I’m not alone in my “what if” thoughts or “what should have happened” thoughts. When we feel lost in our life its not because God has left us there. He’s giving us reasons to put our faith and trust in him and to show us he’s still writing our stories. If we haven’t seen the God in our story its because he is still writing it and he will show up.

1 Timothy 6:15

He’ll show up right on time, his arrival guaranteed

I read something great today I want to share…

Instead why don’t we think of it as the “preparing” not the “waiting”. And while God is preparing for “provision” it won’t feel like “punishment”. ♥️