Life After Divorce | The New Me Mom

A memory popped up on my social media today from this time last year. Of course it was in the midst of my crazy life. I had posted the video for “truth be told” by Matthew West. A Christian artist for those that don’t know.

A line in the song says: “I say I’m fine, yeah I’m fine oh I’m fine, hey I’m fine but I’m not. I’m broken”.

I’m coming more to the realization lately that I put a fake face up more than I care to admit. I laugh things off and appear to have it all together but if I really think about it, I’m not ok. I’m a mess. I don’t know what I’m going to do with my life, what career I’m going to have for the next 20 years, and have no clue what my future holds for myself and my kids. I’m lonely and have been for a long time. When I don’t have my kids I feel like I don’t have a purpose, because right now, my kids are my life. I know that’s a common feeling for moms in society but I’m a newly single mom and learning who I am and what I want in life all over again. I probably have a better idea of what I want this time around, beings that I’m almost 40 years old and not in my 20s anymore. The things I wanted in my 20s were fun and adventure while my late 30s is looking like stability and true happiness. I’m no longer really scared of the future. I welcome it, if anything, with open arms. I’m way more grateful for where I’m at and what I’ve overcome to get here. It’s been a long road and a difficult one. So how do I get out of this rut? This funk? How do I get my “self” back?

Romans 12:2 says…

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

Read the above again. Renewal of your mind… discern what is the will of God! That’s powerful. Such a powerful message in one verse.

Look to God! And if you feel you are carrying something heavy, let it go. God will carry it for you and already has.

If you’re tired, seek God and he will give you rest.

If you are sad, God is always near and will save those crushed in spirit.

If you are scared, the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.

If you’re lonely, God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.

Today is done. Tomorrow is a new day. Let’s live for tomorrow and see where God plants us. ♥️